Today's entry is just going to be full of random tidbits. ¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤ The AP english exam was this morning and it bit my ass. Hard. I'm serious. It was NO fun. I mean that. My muscles are all sore from sitting and hunching over the fucking desk to write for 3 hours straight. Afterwards, Sara, Beth and I went out for pizza before returning for last period speech class. ¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤ Tony is getting on my fucking nerves. I'm getting pissed off at him because he'll flirt with me and when I flirt back or act equally as suggestive, he gets all pissy and tells me to stop. Please excuse me, but since I don't want to say this to his face because it wouldn't be worth it, I have to let this out somewhere. This is the thought that ran through my head today as I walked up to the lit mag meeting. *ahem* Has Cindy made you official yet? No. She has *not*. So quit your damn bitching and stop acting like I'm victimizing you by returning the flirtations you started. You never should have kissed me if you honestly expected me not to want anything more. It takes two. You do the math. You're the one who's passing course 3 right now aren't you? This isn't working for me like I thought it would. I've held my breath for long enough. Your move. I'm too wonderful to put up with this, come find me when you realize that. Thank you. *end thought* Please know that I'm likely to change all of this if the day comes that he does decide that he wants to be with me, but I won't forget that I said it. I do like him, I'm just not letting that get in the way of my seeing his faults. Speaking of faulty people, exDave wants to move with Adrien into a 2 bedroom apartment. Christ, this is working out like my novel. But *waaaaaaah* why must he move to Albany? No! Bad Dave! Stay out of my fucking college town! ¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤ I finished my novel last night. I need to revamp the ending. My heart wasn't in it. ¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤ Look who's gotten involved in a message board war with me. Why don't you join in? It's all in the fun. Go. Go now. The link is at the bottom. ¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤ I gave a speech in acceptance of a scholarship last night. It was a nice evening. I wish it could've lasted longer. I wish everything could have lasted longer. If I could do anything right now, I'd go back and just watch myself stress out about things that I can't remember at this moment. You know, the things I could never change or prevent from happening. I would have dramatized a lot less, gotten into therapy sooner, given into temptation a bit more and a bit less but only towards the right things...and, let's be honest, given in to a few more of the bad things too. previous - next