I'd like to begin this entry with acknowledging that I am fully aware that the hotel I'll be staying in on my class trip is in Scarborough and not downtown. I've known that for a while now. But thank you, who has signed my guestbook, for filling me in. ¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤ I'm listening to "Baby Don't Lie to Me." Nothing significant there. I'm just listening to it. ¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤ We got our yearbooks today. It's too fucking early in the year to have one in my posession but I do. This year's book came out wonderfully. I'm impressed, yet hesitant to let someone sign it because then it's the beginning of the end. I'm in my final stretch and I'm scared of it all being over. There's only so much further to go. The spring concert is next tuesday, my term paper due in english has to be handed in on the 21st, the senior class trip is May 25th-28th, then next month I graduate the week after David gets married. What am I doing with myself? I miss Adrien more than I thought I could. I wish I was in Albany and that we could hang out more than we will when I go to college but for now I have to deal with this. I'm not always online to talk with him at the same time he's on and I can't afford the phone calls. God, I'm making it out to sound as though he's my boyfriend which is kinda fucked up because he's not. I've just never been so close to someone like this and when exDave moves to Albany (if he moves) I fear that the elements will change between us. I don't want to lose the Adrien I get when it's just the two of us. I can feel myself getting sick. I don't eat as much as I used to and after I do, I feel a bit queasy. This all sucks because I am so fucking hungry I could eat my hand. I don't like that feeling, that "Damned if you eat, damned if you don't eat" situation that I've been getting nearly every morning. I've got to make my stomach happier, and myself for that matter. previous - next