Is this some sort of medieval torture?Yeah, I'm not with Tony but I have the best dreams about him. Why the hell is that? And more importantly, if we're not going to be together, why can't they stop?
This is what happens. I'm not always consumed by this affection. Half the time, it's like I don't feel anything. We never kissed. I don't want to do anything with him. I'm not dramatizing this. I've let go. It's in the past. The other half, well, the other half involves me walking faster down the hallway when I see he's at Cindy's locker. It involves me walking out of the cafeteria because her special visit to him at his table would be too painful for me to watch as he acts all affectionate to her.
On the whole, this is not as bad as I make it out to be. I'm closer to getting completely over this than I was a month ago. What is also a comforting thought is that no matter what happens, I'll be out of here in three months, building a new life in Albany while at the college that has given me $14,000.
So, I'll be getting over this soon, right?
