Did something tonight that I've never done, or that I can't remember doing ever.I got out of my music class at around 9pm. I found myself walking towards the chapel. So I get there and Friar Jim is usually there but he wasn't tonight. That was nice cause I wanted to do this alone.
Most of the lights are off when I get inside the building before entering the actual church. I look around and I see I'm all alone.
I get maybe 3 feet inside the doors and I start crying.
I walked around to see that I was truly alone and in the end I sat there and prayed.
And I actually felt like someone was listening.
I sat in privacy, crying in the front seat.
I finished praying and walked towards the door. I saw the small fountain of holy water and applied some to my forehead. I was wearing a low riding shirt so I put some on my heart and cried a little more.
Writing all this down now makes me feel different though. I've never been through anything like this. Maggie said she was afraid I was going to turn into a "Jesus Freak" and I can honestly say that I'm afraid of becoming too faithful. I have a hesitancy about it.
I don't know what to do. This is all too weird to me.
