“Hey.”“How are ya?” I asked.“Good. How are you?”“Doing alright. Did you tell Ilene about my hickeys?”“No, you wanna brag about them?”“No, you did enough of that for me yesterday. If it's any consolation, they hurt a tiny bit so it's a bittersweet bragging.”“I don't care.”“I didn't think the day would come when *you* were the one who didn't wanna hear about my escapades.”“Nope. You ruined it for yourself.”“Huh?“Yup, my parents saw it too.”“Yeah, I saw eyes wandering. I was afraid of that.””What do you think they thought about it?”“I think they're disappointed in me and for that I'm sorry.”“I am too.”“I my best to cover up. I’m embarrassed they had to see it.”“No, you didn't.”“Um, yeah I did I do NOT own any turtlenecks.”“You could've put some makeup on.”“But I did.”“But you said you didn't. You said it doesn't look as bad with makeup on.”“No, I said I did and that it looked worse without any on. You must have misheard me because I was applying makeup and cover-up on it for at least an hour before you even called. Why would I say something like that?”“I guess I heard bad.”“Tell your parents that I'm sorry and that I really hope they don't think too less of me. If that's even a phrase. I'm sorry if I embarrassed you.”“You didn't embarrass me at all. You embarrassed yourself.”“What did they say about it?”“They talked about it. I don't know if it changed what they think of you but I think they were also upset.”“How did you feel about it?”“Cause they really like you. You’re like the "favorite," especially for my mom”“They're my favorite too. I didn't want them to see. I love your mom. But you're avoiding my question.”“How do I feel about it? Let me just say that I thought you knew better. I mean, you always say that your a lot more mature than your age. But I think that going to hang out with a guy that you haven't talked to makes you look bad.”“I have talked to him. I was exaggerating that night. We see each other more often than i said we did.”“As long as you’re sure.”“Oh, yeah...I'm sure. You know that I don't jump into things without thinking first.”“Whatever.”“No, let's talk about this.”“I don't want to.”“You obviously feel strongly enough about this. Are you jealous? Honestly?”“I feel like this because you’re my friend.”“Then you should be happy that I'm moving on from you. This is what you wanted, right?”“I'm happy that your moving on.”“It's just the way you’re doing it that just isn't right.”“What did you want me to do? Sit around and mope and cry about you like I have in the past?”“I may be wrong but let me just say this, if I did like you and i wanted to go out with you now, I wouldn't.”“You wouldn't because of my choice?”“Maybe for other people it’s nothing.”“But when I was at your house shortly after I left and we were getting cozy on the couch, if I hadn't made it seem really romantic by taking your hand you wouldn't have had a problem and shied away like you did that night. Cause God knows intertwining your fingers in mine is the worst I could have done.”“I'm just giving that as an example.”“So am I.”“Do whatever you want. But like I said, this does make you look bad iin my eyes and my parents.”“That's what this is about. If I hadn't pressured you for anything or not "expected anything from you" remember? You wouldn't have had a problem doing anything with me.”“What are you talking about?”“Remember when we kissed that night in August? When we went out mini-golfing?”“Yeah.”“And I said I wouldn't expect anything from you? You still kissed me and the next day at your house, you're like "I have one question...what did you mean by ‘expect?’”“See that’s the thing. I didn't kiss you. I received that kiss.”“You could have stopped. You could have pushed me off.”“I tried to.”“I'm not that forceful, hon. You really could have stopped me and for all the reasons I'm used to, I would have out of respect for you.”“I'm not going to push you off. After I turned my head several times you still didn't get the picture.”“You could have stopped me in the middle of it and said "no."“I'm just saying.”“I know.”“I can see you watch a lot of tv. Listen…”“What's that mean?”“Why are u bringing this up?” he asked me.“What does that mean? What's tv got to do with this?”“Nothing.”“No. I'm bringing this up because you seem to have this problem with the way I'm moving on from you.”“What does that kiss have to do with this?”“Because, if you and I made out and I had no expectations, you would have been all for it and you know it and now you're getting disappointed in me for going off and just making out with a guy who may have that same perspective as you.”“That’s not true. I never had a desire of getting with you. We're not made for each other.”“Yeah, I know that now.”“I talked about your hickey because I thought it was disgusting. Sorry to say it that way and you were basically bragging.”“Why did my bragging bother you?”“Because it makes you look bad.”“What did I say to brag or was it just the fact that it was out in the open?”“You never felt like hiding it and then you turned to show me the other side.”“But that was just to you, not to your parents.”“Don't matter.”“If you say so. If you were the one with the hickey, you would be saying something about it to me. What did you do ten minutes after I showed you? You said that you had developments of your own at home. And I thought, ‘That’s convenient.’ But I didn’t say it.”“See, that’s the difference. I wouldn't have a hickey.”“Oh come on, if you were making out with a girl and she did that to you, your mind would be all clouded. Too much to stop it from happening.”“You have to get into making out for that to happen, you know.”“And I was into it.”“I don't care about what you do anymore. As a friend, I'm trying to tell you that what you did makes you look bad.”“It makes me look bad to YOU. If there was no past between us at all, you would have been like ‘Hey...go you.’ And you said that yesterday, essentially. ‘I see you had fun last night.’“But I guess I just can't talk to you that way without you bringing up what happened between us that shouldn't have happened.”“What shouldn't have happened? I didn't bring that up until tonight when you showed some unease about the way I'm living my life.”“Fine…”“No, you can't say something like ‘That shouldn't have happened.’“Go make out with every guy you meet. Have sex with them if you want to. I don't care. You know what you’re doing.”“Hon, if you’re gonna call me a slut, then I really am wrong about you. And thus have to go. We'll talk later. This was fun.” And then I blocked him. previous - next