Well, folks. It's been great. I'm down to my last three Neurontin. By 10am tomorrow morning, it'll be over. Yay that. Is fun. ___________________________ I don't want to go home. My oldest brother is there for keeps now and we clash horribly. He's one of those right wing, republican, pro-lifers and I'm not. He moved out when I was 8. ___________________________ Now my doctor wants me to get a bonescan or something. That's nice. Electrocuting the muscles in my foot didn't exactly make the swelling go down last time. The only thing that did was the 2 miles I walked on the treadmill yesterday. I fucking feel like this when the doctors come around for me. It's just one appointment after the other. I'm trying my best not to get depressed about it but sometimes it happens. I just really don't want another winter like this past one, where people forget my birthday, my necklace gets stolen, I go on ortho-trycyclene (Sp?) and then get suicidal. I really don't want that to happen. Been thinking about that lately. I remember laying in my bed late at night last February and thinking that I shouldn't do anything drastic because I wanted to pursue a relationship with Tony. Yeah, people. That was the highlight of my life back then. Nice, huh? Aside from AJ, nobody else really knows what I'm about to say (with the exception of my parents and Frank): I had an aversion to driving over the bridge on my way to school. I was afraid that I would take the wheel and plunge my car into the Neversink river. Then it would be over. There would be no stupid anxiety over things that were retarded to begin with. In the end, I got another necklace, I got another birthday coming up in a month and four days and I got a whole new way of life, new location, more Adrien, more Maggie, got to meet Squee, AJ, Kath, Ellen, Nate, Fiona, went to Falcon Ridge, started talking to Kate, met Kevin, kissed Brian, Tony and Dave again. With the exception of the recurring foot problem, it's been a very good year. 15 days left. Wonder what's to come. previous - next