I am now at home.I've been here since Friday night and usually, I would have written by now but I was sidelined by Tony and a migraine that lasted yesterday from 4:30pm-11:30.
That was probably due to the salmon tuna I used as a dip with breadcrumbs for the potato chips that were followed up by the last of coffee haagen dazs as dessert.
Yum?
Not on the uptake, no.
Went out to dinner with Tony on friday. He's let his hair grow and lemme say, it induced flashbacks in yours truly.
Major things I've learned that evening: 1. I am without a doubt, over this situation and him.2. I was a great friend to him yet I'm not yet objective enough to say that vice versa; the same is true.3. I put too much stock into the outcome of that relationship.4. I can't honestly say that I want him back in my life as a friend or anything.
Now I'm trying to be stoic and let things just flow. I am doing that with Dave. Do you know how hard of an adjustment this is to go from living a year to year to a day by day basis.
In other news, the migraine had me wishing I was in Albany sleeping with Dave and letting him take care of me by holding my hair back as I threw up the day's binge and getting a scalp massage while my temples throbbed. Too bad that will have to wait five days.
As I've said, I'm going up to see him on friday and we're spending the night in Saratoga. I want some time away from Albany and so does he (him: the twins, being officially fired from SRI. me: college and home disputes). We'll pretend we're really in Barbados or any place warmer than NY as we're living it up in the hotel room (which is surely hotter than it is in any room of this house).
Afterwards, I'll drop him back off at BabyLand; on the way home, an appointment with Frank involving hypnosis and then spending Sunday to pack up and head out by Monday morning.
I need to spend more time on me.
