I worry about you.I know we've only known each other for two months and that a great portion of that time has been spent exploring each other inside and out but I worry about your welfare.
Especially true when you tell me that you feel hopeless and lonely and that while you live with the kids 24/7, you don't think you're being productive or making any contributions to the very same world you feel crumbling around you.
I worry. I worry when I can hear that desperation in your voice when you say "I have nothing good in my life right now but for them."
Why do you say these things when I'm 100 miles away and not within a cab fare's distance from you?
I wish that I could be there with you right now. I can somehow sense that you could really go for this. I would help you fall asleep with the aide of my hands and some bath and body works lotion.
You would relax and as a result, so would I.
And I really need that right now cause the last time I felt relaxed was when I woke up in the middle of the night in your bed. It was dark and all I could see were the shadows etched out from the lack of light. My dream had just ended and I was forced awake.
I was kind of startled by my surroundings, you know how that happens? You wake up suddenly and wonder where you are cause somehow you lost your mind, some IQ points and forgot? Yeah, you know what I mean :)
I felt your hand on my waist and smiled in the dark.
Thank God you were asleep.
I don't want you thinking I'm a sap or anything.
