Something's wrong with me lately. If anyone talks to me for more than five minutes I want them to shut the hell up. I'm not sure what it is but I just get irritated really easily with them now. It's like...on the outside, I'll be all compassionate and looking like I'm hearing what they say. On the inside, I'm just screaming for them to just stop talking.
I applied for two jobs today: Bath and Body Works and Waldenbooks. I have no idea when I'll hear from either of them but there's time still.
I went to therapy yesterday and cried about Dave for the first time in 2 weeks. It was good and felt good to do. While at college, when my roommate was away especially, I tried not to cry or get really emotional about my disappointment until it was late at night, right before I fell asleep so I wouldn't have to think about how sad I was about it after I stopped crying. Yet, two steps into Frank's office and I couldn't stop the tears from welling up inside my head and then falling out.
Told Frank he was lucky. There are few people I want to discuss this relationship with and sometimes, that includes you...dear reader. Agonizing over every last thing with you hasn't worked in the past. I'm making good progress not letting this turn into a bigger issue with me than it has to be.
Just know that I'm sad about this but I'm getting over it and just because I'm not telling you doesn't mean I'm not dealing.
