I just feel...ugh...Kinda hopeless and like I'm not being productive. I'm home everyday with nothing to do and I hate feeling as though I have nothing to contribute to the people around me...and until I get my job and fix my car, I really won't.My car problems only make this worse because if the cvl or whatever it is got fixed, I could go out and get a job and be away from this house where everyone is tense and I have NOTHING TO DO.
I mistake boredom for depression way too easily. Jeremy and I fight everyday about something. I resent him and feel sickened by the fact that I do.
I do not look forward to a fucking summer full of hostility while my car rots in the driveway and I get fat on the couch watching tv.
But I *know* things will get better. Somehow I'll strike a deal and have the money so my car can get fixed and I can be preoccupied by something new and positive.
I know this entry is really losely connected and stuff like that but I'm extremely tired tonight as well as over emotional.
