Jesus. Help me.I think I'm losing my touch.
It's been a year since I started my last story. I usually punch out one a year. I'm afraid that I'm losing my ability and confidence.
Like, I'll get started and think "Goddamn, that would make a great story." But that will be followed by "Well, how the hell can YOU make it interesting enough for other people to WANT to read it? Won't they say it's predictable and that it sucks?"
Don't get me started. I know that every writer goes through this but I'm not normal. I've been sitting here trying to get this story out since Sunday and tonight, every word I write makes me want to yell at myself for thinking I could ever make it as a writer.
I really have no talent at this. And so, you see, this is the problem: this is all I've ever been sure that I've wanted to do. I don't want to become one of those people who don't know what they want to do with their lives. I know that I want to do this.
I am just having problems making it work right now.
And God dammit, my sitemeter readings have dropped considerably since I reached the 20,000 banner views limit on diaryland.
This essentially means that those of you who have been meaning to add me to your buddy lists should now do so. No need to add a comment mentioning WHY you like me or anything like that, just add me and make me feel better.
Anyone wanna buy me a Gold Membership to Diaryland? Anyone?
Anyone? Bueller? Bueller?
