Where to begin?It's been 4 days since I updated, apparently. Figure I might give you all some Sally Lovin' before my sitemeter readings go down below the 10 mark.
I want to smack exDave...again.
Me: Yeah, so I get to live alone for 4 days or 3, depending on when Cathy's moving in.ExDave: So you'll be visiting then.Me: Excuse me?Dave: You heard me. You won't have anyone else to hang with, so I was assuming you'd visit me.Me: My training goes late into the nights on almost every night except Saturday and I plan on hanging out with Dave that night.Dave: Bah. That's okay, I'm partying Saturday anyway. Tell me that your brother is helping you move so I can stop by and see him.
Get a little closer to my hand so I can smack the hell out of you. I'm too nice regarding him and can't afford to be mean considering Adrien is very much a major part of my life...who apparently broke his foot the other day in some sort of accident I know little about.
Tuesday night was spent on the phone with the newer Dave, flirting away and making promises I am afraid but anxious to keep. We plan on getting coffee Saturday night. I offered free dinner and massage. He took the bait like I expected.
Thing is, he scares me. Not like intimidates me physically but scares me in that I know how much he can hurt me and I'm afraid of it happening again. I'm afraid that I'm so affection-starved that I'm willing to forgive past transgressions. Forgiveness isn't so much a bad thing so long as I don't forget what I'm forgiving.
And if you know me, you know I never forget a damn thing. I remember conversations I had with people I'm no longer speaking to as well as vocal tones, facial expressions and things people were wearing during said conversations. Dave asked me if I remembered the Cavalier he had while we were going out. I was like "What the hell? Of course I know that car. What did you and I do in that car, Dave?"
Got the car yesterday. Her name is Ruby Dee and I love her. She's just great. I had 4 hours of driving to get used to her already. There are too many gadgets to play around with inside and out. For the first time I have a remote door lock and a 6 cd changer.
Also a first is my feeling of security while driving in the rain. My Camry scared me in the rain but the tires are different on the Saab. When we sold the wagon on Monday night, I wasn't too upset. It kind of felt as though I was giving up my kid for the night to my babysitter, leaving tips on how to check the oil daily and explaining how the ingition won't work if you put the key in a certain way. Then we took off the plates, exhanged keys for the $800 purchase and drove home. That was about it.
Kind of uneventful.
Oh, my cell phone has voice dialing so I can assign spoken words to people's names. When newDave and I were talking Tuesday I explained the feature. "What word did you associate with me? 'Asshole'?" After laughing I said no but that I'd think of something before I was done with him and then would change it to 'Asshole' after he pissed me off for the last time.
When he gets into my car Saturday night, I'm going to scroll over his name and put the phone up to his ear. He'll laugh cause it'll say "Asshole." I may let him change it though.
Tonight was my last night at work. I love my boss, Amanda. She's amazing. She sits there with us, shooting the shit for a few hours and it's great. We hugged and then I drove off into the darkness with my cool red car.
And you didn't ;)
Addendum: Looked at sitemeter tonight. Apparently, I'm a good source for the kinkiest sex you've ever had. Who knew?
