I wanted this to happen for a while now. I wanted to play my old tenor sax from highschool. To be sexual, I just wanted to wrap my lips around the mouthpiece and inspire sounds that it probably hasn't made since I last used my oral talents on it two years ago. I used to be so good on it.
Last friday night provided me the chance to flex my tongue muscles on it. A friend was performing in the highschool production of Gypsy and afterwards, I went into the bandroom to see her (they were using it as a dressing room).
Luckily, I knew the girl who was playing my saxophone for the night and I begged to play it again.
She let me. And I tell you, I haven't ached this bad for something (that wasn't sex) in about a year. I didn't want to let it go. When I did, it was saddening. I've been playing sax for about ten years here and I have never missing anything like that feeling of being on stage, having everyone's attention and making a sound you wouldn't expect from someone so small. Even though it gave me nauseatingly nervous stomachs, the feeling was addictive and lately, I've felt the desire for it it running through my veins.
I want that feeling again and somehow, I'm going to find it.
